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i need to go home [Jun. 12th, 2007|10:37 pm]
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[mood |frustratedfrustrated]

i need to go home for good, i need to get away from all this shit, i miss all my friends from ct, fuck that i just need to find other people to hang out with, everyone else has other friends to hang out with and shit and i am stuck here with just a handfull, at least in ct i fit in with my friends, i am just fucking fed up with everything and everyone...
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haha [Jan. 22nd, 2007|03:33 am]
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[mood |contentcontent]

this should drive something crazy or make them really paranoid once again...
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and another thing... [Oct. 19th, 2006|04:25 am]
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[mood |aggravatedaggravated]

I WANT TO SEE MY FUCKING NEPHEWS!!!!!!!!!!! I HATE PEOPLE SO MUCH!!!!! WHY DO PEOPLE HAVE TO BE SUCH FUCKING ASS HOLES!!!!!! anyways... enough ranting
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arggggggggggggggggggg [Oct. 19th, 2006|12:25 am]
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so what really pisses me off is...

1. my sister in law putting a restraining order on my brother and basically cutting off my family from seeing my newphews.
2. how fast dan and jen are moving in their relationship. i realize that they won't see eachother for a long time but at the same time he has katie and the boys to deal with... and they got matching tattoos on their calves. i think that is really corny and retarded. their whole myspace pages are almost dedicated to eachother and it makes me sick. they are already refering to themselves as hisband and wife and dan is still married! the relationship should have been held off til all this shit with katie subsided.
3. people at work... 2 people to be exact. they act all nice and shit until they don't get their fucking way. too bad you fucking bitches, deal with it!
4. laundry... i wish kevan would do his fucking laundry. that's all i'll say about that.
5. i wish kevan and i lived on our own, but we don't have the money.
6. i miss my mommy.
7. i want to go to california for school.
8. i want to go back to school period.
9. i want to get a better job and not work at tjmaxx anymore.
10. and finally... I WANT PEOPLE TO STOP STARTING BULLSHIT WITH ME AND MY FRIENDS!!!
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long time... [Sep. 11th, 2006|10:35 pm]
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so anyways... it's been a while since i last wrote and yeah... now i live in jersey with kev's family and everything is going alright. work still sucks... i am still at tjmaxx and hopefully i will be out in cali soon. but anyways, kev and i are two years and still going strong... yeah, so i really don't want to write anymore... so that's it for now i guess
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what a fucking day [Dec. 14th, 2005|10:42 pm]
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[mood |amusedamused]

so today started off like any other day i have off... i slept in until like 9:30 and then i went grocery shopping... when i got home i went to put the bottled water into the basement... well the stairs are a little narrow and i forgot about the last step... so i stepped out thinking i could take bigger steps because i wasn't on the stairs anymore... well boy was i wrong... i ended up spraining my ankle, i put away the groceries and then went up to my room and rested a bit... then when my dad came home we ate dinner and then went looking for an xmas tree, we had no luck in doing so then my dad took me to the er upon my request and found out that my ankle wasn't broken... which i knew to begin with... and that i had just really badly sprained my ankle, so now i can't work for the rest of the week(which sucks cause i only worked two days this week so far) and that i am basically inmobile... i wish it wasn't my right ankle, but it is and it sucks big time, so anyways that was my day... oh and by the way i still have to do laundry and crap... so i may wobble around the house or i may not even do my laundry until next week unfortunately. so here's to me for falling down yet another set of stairs... it was only a matter of time, i just found it funny because the last time i was in the hospital it was the er for a seizure when i was 13 months old, so needless to say i have been pretty good about not having to go to the hospital
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(no subject) [Dec. 7th, 2005|01:48 am]
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[mood |tiredtired]

it's been a while since i last wrote, sine then my mom left for tucsan, az and will be back for christmas, but i haven't seen her since she left. i miss her, and my dog rocky... she took him with her. since my dad went to az for thanksgiving i went to kevs for thanksgiving. things have been going really good for us. we see each other more than ever now which some people think it's nuts since we live 3 hours away from eachother and i can see where they're coming from but i don't care. besides, soon we won't be able to see eachother as much anyways, we both want to start to really save our money and stuff, besides i'll be going back to school and whatnot and with work and everything time is something that kev and i will have the least of. besides i need to go see my mom in az sometime after mid january and i need to go spend some time at marywood to visit everyone. i'll crash with diana and gina. but it's something that we've been trying to plan, so we'll see what happens. i don't know what is going to happen for new years, i don't want to request anymore time off from work... we're not supposed to request time off between nov. 20th and mid jan. and i already requested off time for thanksgiving, so i feel bad requesting more time off... but i don't know if kevan will be able to get some time off from work. oh well, it all seems to work out in the end so we'll see. work is getting to the point where it's just pissing me off. i hate always having to work with this lady earlene... she thinks she can boss everyone around and crap, it pisses everyone off. i hope i have next saturday off but we'll see, i have this saturday off though, maybe if i am lucky they'll give me early hours. it's hard to believe that it has been a little over 15 months with kevan, it's nice though, unfortunately we spend so much money and gas and shit to see eachother, my dad pissed me off the other day saying that i should just move down there and crap... but i mean with what money?! i have car payments to make, insurance and a cell phone bill to pay, i can't afford paying rent and crap, atleast not yet, plus there it the problem of school... i see where my dad is coming from, that i spend so much money on gas and everything, but i don't have the money to moveout quite yet, besides with my mom gone all winter i feel bad leaving, plus my dad can't always take car of my cat, when he goes away to see my mom who the hell will take care of my cat. he's almost 15 years old and needs someone around to take care of him and give him attention. moving to nj is an option... just not right now. it's a nice idea but without the means to successfully do it, i don't want to try it.
i still hate torrington... it's not home, to me i don't think torrington will ever be home. i miss everyone in south windsor and i wish i could be there now and everything. everyone my age is at college and stuff. the few friends i do have are moving to florida soon and their last day of work is dec. 12th. so it just sucks. i need to just get away and see everyone and crap. needless to say jess and i haven't talke in awhile, actually aaron either, but he's never online. almost 2 months til my 20th birthday, hopefully this birthday i get to spend with kevan. we didn't spend kevans 21st birthday together and my 19th birthday. i did go to nj and spend the weekend of his 22nd birthday with him, and if i get to see him on my birthday i will most likely see him on valentines day since my birthday is the day after valentines day.
i kind of want to clean my room just so i can get rid of some stuff that i don't want anymore. i go through phases like this every so often, it kinda sucks though because it takes forever.
anyways i am tired so i am going to get some shut eye. nite nites
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blah [Oct. 3rd, 2005|10:12 pm]
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[mood |sleepysleepy]

so i got home at 1 am this morning and again had to go to work at 6 am to do those fucking markdowns which i will also have to do tomorrow and wednesday... wow. sucks for me. and yes i was at kevs this past weekend again... my mom leaves for tucson, az on oct 16th and she is taking our dog rocky with her... my dad is going to visit her on thanksgiving and new years and she will be home for christmas... meanwhile i have to figure out what the hell i am doing, as far as i know i am going to be in nj for thanksgiving and possibly new years also. it depends on what tjmaxx is willing to gove me off work. we're not supposed to ask for vacation time and technically i am not asking for vacation time i just want some time off so i am not alone for the holidays... i mean i could go to some relatives house but i would rather spend that time with kev... besides, without my parents there and whatnot i don't know how comfortable i would be... don't get me wrong, i love my relatives to death but i would feel weird... possibly. but i was told that i could go to nj for thanksgiving so if i can i am going to go there. i should proabaly get some sleep i need to get up early... and request off time for thanksgiving... yes i am requesting the time off tomorrow... the sooner the better chance i have of definitely getting it off.
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tired as hell [Sep. 20th, 2005|03:43 am]
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[mood |tiredtired]

anyways... so i was in new jersey all weekend for kev's 22nd birthday... i left at like 12:30ish this morning from his house and now i am home... i've only been home for like 15 minutes though... and i have work at 6am... good planning on my part, right? lol... well that's how much i love him i guess so i will go to work and then get home around 2:15ish from work and most likely pass out... i'll be so surprised if i don't pass out, but by then i would be up for over 27 hours... so i know i'll be ready to hop into bed and sleep for a while, but ti lthen i will be stuck at work trying not to fall asleep doing markdowns...
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it's been a while [Aug. 27th, 2005|11:29 pm]
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[mood |tiredtired]

anyways... i know i haven't written in a while... oh well. kevan and i are one year and still going strong... and well i am no longer a student at marywood university, i will attending scsu in the spring and whatnot but i got bill sto pay and i need to take a semester off to get things organized, i do admit, i miss mu and being able to go see my friends by just walking/running and whatnot down the hall... I WILL BE BACK TO VISIT! work sucks i still work at tjmaxx... just a different branch... i moved by the way... far away from home... MY HOUSE IS IN TORRINGTON... BUT MY HOME IS IN SOUTH WINDSOR... AND MY HEART IS IN PORT MONMOUTH (NJ). i love my kevy so much, lol. it's hard to believe it's been a year, but them again it feels like we've been together longer... if ya know what i mean, but i got to go, i'll write later
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